Day 1, Feb 19th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be Washington Square Park?
Today I felt stressed and thoughtful about thesis so I decided to take a walk in Washington Square Park. It was a gorgeous warm day 65F and I felt happy to take this beautiful walk, while the sun was shinning. When I came back home I decided to start drawing my feelings. Last time I drew was 14 years ago.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be my childhood bike?
When I finished 8th grade I went for the summer to Germany to visit my aunt and work. With the money I earned I bought a bike. My bike meant the world to me and was my way of escaping the world. Today I felt confused, lost, and panicked about thesis and I decided to represent my feelings as my childhood bike.
Day 2, Feb 20th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be a walk by the river?
I took another walk by the river in Dumbo today and felt happy because it was such a beautiful day, I felt cold - since it's still winter and indecisive about my thesis idea.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be my tiny car?
If my feelings would be my tiny car (which is silver not red and its name is Baby Car), I would drive them far away and all my stress and worries about thesis would be gone! Today I felt broken, and indecisive.
Day 3, Feb 21st 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be tiles?
Today I had my thesis class at NYU ITP. I had such a mix of feelings: confident, worried, excited, calm, thoughtful, grateful, great, bored, tired, and stressed about the midterm.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be a pendant?
Today I wore this nice pendant from my aunt and tried to feel inspired, but in reality I was still undecided about what to do for thesis. Why this process has to be so tough?
Day 4, Feb 22nd 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be dandelions?
Today I had lots of meetings and felt bored, intrigued, hungry, indifferent, and disconnected. If my feelings would be dandelions, I could blow them away like the wind.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would a rainbow?
My boyfriend and I had a fight today. I felt sad, guilty, sorry, awful, frustrated, lonely, bad, and hurt. It breaks my heart.
Day 5, Feb 23rd 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be buttons?
Today I wore a button shirt and decided my feelings would be buttons. "You can't connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backwards." Steve Jobs
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be light bulbs?
I spoke to my mom tonight. She said I should be happy and grateful to be in NYC and study at NYU. I felt enlightened and decided my feelings are going to be light bulbs tonight.
Day 6, Feb 24th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings were wheels?
Today I had to take my car to Toyota and thought about drawing my feelings as wheels. I felt tired, lucky, grateful, confident, inspired, positive, motivated, ready, and uncertain.
The World Inside
What if my feelings were musical notes?
Today in my Inside World I felt loved by my boyfriend, in love with him, and gratfeul, lucky and happy to have him in my life.
Day 7, Feb 25th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be books?
Gosh I love books! I'm so old fashion and love reading books. Went to Bobst Library to borrow some books for thesis and felt productive, energetic, excited, creative, relieved, and inspired.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be scissors?
Scissors can create art but also destroy art. I was trying to decide if my drawings are becoming 'something' for thesis and felt content, balanced, and capable.
Day 8, Feb 26th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be vinyl plates?
When I was young, I used to love listening to children stories on a vinyl record player. Today I felt distracted, doubtful, but productive and decide my feelings are vinyl plates.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be two worlds in one?
Today I felt nostalgic and thought how great would be to have both Cluj- my hometown in Romania, and NYC - Brooklyn in one world. It would be the best world ever.
Day 9, Feb 27th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be stones?
Today I went to get a massage with my boyfriend. It was his present to me for Valentine's Day. I felt good, confident, relaxed, and balanced.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be stones?
For the first time my Inside & Outside worlds were ONE. I felt good, confident, relaxed, and balanced.
Day 10, Feb 28th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be subway lines? Which lines would they be?
Today I had to go far in Brooklyn to do my fingerprints. I had to take the F and the B. Since B was running with delays, I felt stressed, and worried that I will miss my appointment.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be my fingerprints?
I had to do my fingerprints today which made me feel anxious, nervous, but grateful to be able to apply for a green card. For the US government we are a SSN and some fingerprints.
Day 11, March 1st 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be Google Hangout?
Today I had lots of meetings on Google Hangout and felt annoyed, defensive, irritated, and frustrated with this project.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be a 'Martisor?
'Martisor'is a Romanian symbol of spring offered by men to women on March 1st as a symbol of spring. Since today is March 1st, it reminded me of home and felt nostalgic.
Day 12, March 2nd 2017
The World Outside
What is my feelings would be coffee cups?
Today I had 3 cups of coffee, which is so bad. However, I felt productive, excited, and ambitious about my thesis project.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be network nodes?
If my feelings would be network nodes, they would all be connected to each other and dependable on each other. Felt very focused today on thesis.
Day 13, March 3rd 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be clothes?
Today I was very tired but still went to the NYU Entrepreneur Festival and got a free hoodie! Yay! Decided my feelings today will be this hoddie.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be the Earth Globe?
Today we had friends over. It made me think how grateful I am to have these people I love in my life. It also made me think of the people that are not with us anymore like my dad, but always present in my heart.
Day 14, March 4th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be letters? Which letters would they be?
Today I felt very productive about my thesis project and I decided to make my feelings letters, and so I picked the first letter of their name from the people I love.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be cherry blossoms?
Today I felt SO EXCITED about my spring break trip to DC, dreamy about seeing the cherry blossom trees, and happy about the upcoming travel plans.
Day 15, March 5th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be pizza ingredients?
Today I ordered pizza oops because I was so stressed with thesis. However, even if the pizza was unhealthy, at least I felt productive about the work I did.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be tiny trees?
If my feelings would be trees, they would be my amazing bonsai, whom I love so much and sits on my desk. In terms of feelings, today I felt responsible.
Day 16, March 6th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings were orange slices?
Midterm is tomorrow and I can't help but stress about it. I love oranges and eat oranges almost every day so I decided my feelings today are oranges.
The World Inside
What if my feelings were people?
Today I was SO HAPPY because my best friend Marci visited me from Germany. It made me forget a little bit about thesis and felt happy that she is here.
Day 17, March 7th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be foreign language letters?
Today I had my midterm presentation for thesis and it didn't go as well as I expected so I felt confused, confident, lost, annoyed, frustrated, exhausted, down, stressed, nervous, and pissed about some of the feedback I got.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be a bathtub where I can hide?
Today was the only day in this project that I didn't draw my feelings, I only sketched what I wanted to draw and then took a bath and went to bed. I felt avoidance.
Day 18, March 8th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be 'toy protesters? What would they protest about?
Today I went to Clay Shirkey's talk at ITP and was inspired by the toy protesters he showed so decided my feelings today are toy protesters and they protest that they are exhausted, tired, hungry.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be snowdrops?
Today I thought my feelings are snowdrops because snowdrops are a symbol of spring in Romania and spring is coming. Today I felt worried.
Day 19, March 9th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be pens? Which color would they be?
Today I was so happy because I bought 30 new Stabilo pens. Other than being happy about the pens, I was tired, focused, annoyed, and frustrated about a project I'm working on.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be stars?
Today I drew my feelings at 1am and only the stars and the sky were still 'awake' with me. I felt inspired,and excited.
Day 20, March 10th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be gravels trapped on an igloo?
Today my boyfriend and I went to a spa and it was so wonderful! I felt conncted, positive, relaxed, but a bit dizzy. It was such a nice break from thesis.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be "Papanasi"?
'Papanasi' is a Romanian desert and also the best desert in the world! My boyfriend and I went to a Romanian restaurant and ate papanasi and was so happy!
Day 21, March 11th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be tax forms?
Today I did my taxes and felt overwhelmed, busy, stressed, sick, and tired. However, had to do them and it's good to be done.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be chess pieces?
One of my favorite games when I was little was chess so decided my feeling would be chess pieces. Today I felt sad, sick, and hopeless because my sister can't make it to my graduation.
Day 22, March 12th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be furniture pieces? What would they be?
I sit every day at my desk and draw my feelings so decided my feelings today would be my desk and my uncomfortable chair :) I felt focused, and productive.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be lego parts?
When I was a child I used to LOVE building houses and castles with lego. Today my feelings were lego parts and felt helpless but motivated, and ambitious about my thesis.
Day 23, March 13th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be snowflakes?
Today was such a snowstorm in NYC so decided my feelings are snowflakes. Since I was trapped in the house due to snow, I worked on thesis and felt productive, confident, and focused.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be a Rubik Cube?
The all time favorite toy I had when I was a child was my Rubik cube that my dad bought. One day I lost a piece and felt like the end of the world just happened. Today I was productive, but still sad that my sister is not coming to graduation.
Day 24, March 14th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be a binary tree?
Today I had my first Nature of Code class and we learned about binary trees and thought my feelings match a binary tree. I was mainly worried if I can finish my thesis on time.
The World Inside
What if my feelings were chocolate?
Today I bought a chocolate and ate it with pleasure and no guilt. I felt indulgent and wanted to reward myself for my hard work on thesis.
Day 25, March 15th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be sent out letters?
I love writing letters. I mainly write letters to friends in Germany and my best friend Anca. Today I felt compelled, productive, and hungry.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be a laundry machine?
Today I had to do so much laundry so I decided my feelings would be a laundry machine. I felt pressured by time and wonder if I can finish thesis on time.
Day 26, March 16th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be cables?
I worked in the equipment room at ITP today aka ER where I'm covered in cables so I thought of representing my feelings as cables today. I had to present a project in front of VCs and was excited, accomplished, and exhausted.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be a house? Which house would they be?
Today I went to a school counselor and felt emotional after talking to her. This is my beautiful house in Romania designed by my father who was a famous architect in Romania. If my feelings would be a house, they would be my house in Romania.
Day 27, March 17th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be bags?
Spring Break is here! Pack your bags! Today I went to a workshop and felt tired but informative, and scared about opening a start-up.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be the Staten Island Bridge?
We drove on the Staten Island bridge today on our way to DC aka spring break and I felt so excited to finally take a break.
Day 28, March 18th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be pictures?
Today I walked all day through DC and visited the US Capitol, the White House, Washington Monument and the cherry blossom trees who, unfortunately are not bloomed yet. I felt happy, touristy, relaxed, adventurous, and excited. I took lots of pictures and decided my feelings today are pictures.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be an ice cream cone?
Today I ate ice cream with my boyfriend from an ice cream truck while walking through DC. My feelings are identical as in my Outside world and felt happy, touristy, relaxed, adventurous, and excited.
Day 29, March 19th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be the solar system?
Today my boyfriend and I went to visit 4 museums in DC ha! :) I felt educated, cramped, happy, touristy, inspired, relaxed, adventurous, excited, tired, and in pain and since we saw a beautiful solar system at the National Air and Space museum decided that's what my feelings are going to be today.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be an art installation? Which art installation would they be?
The winner would be this amazing art installation by Alexander Calder that I saw today at the National Gallery of Art in DC. Unfortunately I felt cramped all day.
Day 30, March 20th 2017
The World Outside
What if my feelings would be an art piece? Which art piece would they be?
Today is the last day of my project and I felt so accomplished! On Day 30th, decided that my feelings of self-doubt and self-confidence would be visible to the world thorugh this amazing art piece by Matisse.
The World Inside
What if my feelings would be the ocean?
As per my last Inside World day I wanted to draw the ocean, which I feel so close to even through my name Ondina which means mermaid. Today I felt ready, different, accomplished, excited, proud, happy, and confident about thesis. Feelings are like waves: they keep coming and going.